no matter how loud you bid your goodbye, no matter how you say your farewell, my ears are covered and i’ll listen never.
for goodbyes don’t mean the ending. not even the last of everything. but it doesn’t mean i will also hope for a future with you coz i know it won’t come true.
just let my tears fall. let my silence fill the air tonight. the situation turned me into a crying little girl. crying. just crying. for there’s nothing i can do to turn your world around and no words to make you change your mind.
stuttering. thinking. trying to tell you everything. before my end, i wanna tell how you completed my every pieces and made me whole. designed my life and made me smile. just the thought of you patches our broken mile.
you led me to where you wanted to take me. but the cliff is not a cliff at all. but you had made me fall. fall into the abyss of all the souls you have in your hand. fall for the person i had known before. you had changed, that’s a fact. will still change, i, myself is prepared.
let go, i must do. turn away, please do. for the last ounce of strength to hold on i had lost. chose your happiness the most. if it’s your smile that’s at stake, i’d gladly cut my wrist. just to see how beautiful your eyes dances with the stars the shines above us tonight is next to my last wish.
the last is to see you smile, and tell me that you had lied. tell me you never loved me the way i did. and all was just a weary heart’s dream.
a smile from me would do. to tell that everything i had in a day with you, was worth to share a year or so. painful but happy. some moments were sad and lonely. it doesn’t matter what i had gone through to wrap these all for you. just don’t whisper the words that i don’t wanna hear. as i have said….
coz to goodbyes i’m deaf.
